Good old Birthday.....

well well

litmus test to see who cares tonight.

only good birthdays are for.

Time to ride the Bull.....  hope no one gets hurt

wish me luck :)

Currently Playing Steal This Album By System of a Down see related

- Roulette

well, well... so much for good thoughts.  now i dont know what the fuck is going on.  I pray for patience.  Like I always have but I dont seem to have it.  A simple hello would solve soo many problems of mine.  I hate complicated situations, and I wish that everything can be as simple as I see it.

I guess good things come to those that wait, but damn... its hard.

I miss friends that are gone, and I see a break up of my current status quo that will result in more chaos.

But my birthday is in two days... how i look forward to this.  We are riding the Bull.  Who is coming with me?:)  I think Im going to even ride it, but I am going to wait  on Jeremy first.  Then I will show him up, hopefully :)

God, just grant me patience in this and in all things...

peace to all those that take time to read my ramblings...

Currently Playing Probot By Probot see related

Life is such a bitch, always when things are good too.  Well the girl I like, just told me she cant see me anymore.  Hoorah, Hoorah.  Big fucking surprise...

Well here comes the hiatus from life.  Time to drink my sorrows down, and hopefully Ill survive untill the other side.  Maybe I dont want to survive...  lots of thinking left to do.  I hate letting people in, it only hurts in the end.  I want to just be a fucking hermit, that writes and paints in the country.  Grow my own food, have a solar house and say fuck off to all people.

so much to bitch about, ill just sit here and brood...

Currently Playing Thirteenth Step By A Perfect Circle see related

Hating work, life, and esp women :)

god i wish i could leave and do something, anything...  9:00 is always painfull, and I wish things would work out for me once in awhile.  When god when?  when is it my time?